I was able to go home for Christmas on the 24th and it was so nice to be there.We had lots going on and never a dull moment! Sorry in advance that the pictures are not the best. I forgot my camera and was stuck using my phone. I guess I should be glad that I can have that option!
The breath taking view from my parents sun room.
Elijah putting together a digger he was really good!
Denise reading Ivy her new book she really liked it!
Ivy wasn't so sure about me since we dont live close. She got warmed up
as the time went by.
Phil and Stacie always looking cute for pictures.
Maya showing off her new Christmas dress that twirls!
Such a cute picture of Lisa who just met Ivy for the first time.
Good thing theres a mama standing by to make her smile so cute!
Elijah told me he wanted to draw a picture of me I thought it
was so cute!
I was trying to get a picture of Anya and her cute curls. She
has such a sweet personality.
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
This is my cousin and one of my best friends Shawna. We grew up together along with another cousin Audrey. We were all 6 months apart and couldn't be separated. Even after she got married we stayed close. She understood me when others didn't and never gave up on me. After having her first baby she became really sick and they found out she had lupus. This was really hard for her and she tried to stay positive. The doctors told her not to have anymore children but she wouldn't listen. She came from a large family and always wanted lots of kids. She had a girl and things went really well so she thought maybe the doctors were wrong. After her daughter was 2 or 3 they tried again to have another one but with no luck. Her lupus continued to zap all her energy and some days she couldn't make it out of bed. She was in Chicago so I thought it would be nice to go help her. I went for a couple of visits and spent most of my time cooking and cleaning and doing laundry. I know she appreciated it and I felt good that I could help out. About 5 years after her daughter was born a cute little boy arrived for them 2 months early. It nearly killed her and he suffered for a long time in the intensive care. She had to drive 2 hours to go see him each time and it sure took a toll on the family. She wasn't going to let him be alone she had faith he would come home. Finally almost a month and a half later she was able to bring him home. She tried to be the best mom she could always supporting her kids. I arranged for a get together with Audrey and her family and Shawna's family to meet in Nauvoo 3 years ago. We had such a great time camping and visiting the sites of Nauvoo and surrounding areas. Its a memory I will hold close forever. We were able to do a session in the Nauvoo temple and the memories of being there will never be forgotten. About 2 years ago our lives were turned upside down when Shawna became really sick. She went in for testing and they found a mass on one of her lungs. When they studied it closer they found it to be cancer so they decided to take it off. After they did this she had to go through chemo and she became really sick.She had to double her doses because of the weakend state of her body from the lupus. After doing all of this she was still sick and kept telling me how dizzy she was. The doctors told her it was probably a side effect from the chemo that she would have to live with. She didn't want to accept it but kept hoping for a different answer. A couple weeks later her head really started to hurt so she went into the ER and they found a tumor on her brain and 2 in her spine. She decided to go ahead and have the one on the front of her brain removed and it cleared her dizziness right up. The ones on her spine started giving her problems so she decided it was best to get the main one out. It was very painful and risky since any false move and she would be paralyzed.At the same point her throat started to close off so they put a stint in there to hold it open to breathe. It was a success and we were hoping this would start helping her feel better. She did start to feel really good for about a month and then she started to have that same pain in her head again. After going back to the doctor they found she had another tumor that would have to be removed. We were all so crushed about this we knew her body couldn't hold out forever with this kind of treatment. Her wonderful in laws had moved out to Chicago to see if they could help and ended up staying for 2 months.
At the beginning of December she had the surgery and it was a success in fact they were really impressed how well she was doing. She was able to come home 2 days after and sleep in her own bed. On Sunday the 5th I got a phone call telling me Shawna had passed away in the night. Her husband later on told me that she had went to bed fine and in the night started coughing up blood. He called 911 but before they could get there she layed back down on the pillow told him she loved him and died. They think the stint in her throat became dislodged and cut off her breathing. I will finish the rest on the next post.
Monday, December 13, 2010
I promise I haven't disappeared I am still here! With having a broken computer it makes it hard to do posts. I have had a lot on my plate lately and I plan to blog about it soon. I just need to find the right pictures. Thanks for being patient and keep checking back with me:)
Saturday, December 11, 2010
I have had a really hard time dealing with her death. Its hard to imagine she is gone and I cant talk to her anymore. No more advice or crying or laughing or vacations with her. That's a hard thing to swallow but I am so grateful for the gospel in my life that makes it easier to move on. I didn't think I would be able to go to the funeral and that really made me sad. A day after I found out the news my roommate told me she was going to buy me a ticket to go. I couldn't believe she would do such a nice thing. It was so sweet of her and I knew she didn't have the money to do it. My cousin Audrey also called me and asked if I was going to go. I wasn't really sure but she said I think its important that we both go so if you need any help please let me help you. I was so overwhelmed by the love shown toward me. I flew out and was able to be there for the viewing that night. It was really nice and one of her brother's had put together a slide show that had so many pictures of us together. It was hard to see how much her siblings were hurting. When I got up to her parents they just cried and cried and my heart broke for them. I hugged her husband and he held it together so well. He was comforting me more then I was him and I thought how sweet and typical that he would do that. My heart broke the most for her kids. The oldest who is 13 now didn't cry at all the 10 year old was really upset and the 5 year old didn't really grasp the idea. I know its going to be a long road for them. The funeral was really beautiful and I was so glad to have my cousin Audrey to sit next to me the whole time. Her sister Emily shared a list of 101 things I know that Shawna had written. I am going to make it my goal this year to come up with my own list. Hers was so beautifully written and I know that she was prepared to die. Its not going to be very easy to have her gone but I know she is at peace and waiting for us.
Friday, December 3, 2010
I work at a retirement home as a cook and for the most part I love my job! Maybe its the fact that I love older people. There is a lot of pressure to make things that they will like. There are always those who give me the I would have never made that food like that lecture! I just smile and nod and say well at least you have someone cooking for you:)The first picture is my favorite resident Winnie and yes that is her name! Maybe because Winnie the Pooh is my favorite I dont know. Her grand kids actually call her grandma Pooh which I think is adorable. Anyway the other pictures are from our Veterans day social. They made a big deal out of veterans that live there. I thought it was great to honor them. The activities director made a poster with all of them on there and where they served. We sang patriotic songs and had punch and cookies. I took a couple of pictures of some of them. The man by himself rarely smiles so the fact I could get him to hold his flag and get him to smile made my day! Also the 3 people that are together wouldn't stop singing to smile so I just took the picture anyway:) Sorry the pictures are not very good I used my phone.
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Sorry I have been missing in action! My sister Lisa came down from Seattle this last weekend for our Thanksgiving. I made a full meal except I only cooked a turkey breast. I thought it turned out good and I had 2 firsts. I made rolls that actually tasted good and didn't weigh 12 pounds! I also made the best pumpkin pie that I have ever made! Do you think I took a picture?! Um nope I was too busy starring at it in all its glory:) My sister and I also decided that the cranberry needed to have a bit more to it besides open the can and dump! So I threw it in a sauce pan and added orange juice, cinnamon and a little sugar. It was really amazing how just those few things made it taste so good. We ate and played games and did a puzzle and talked and relaxed. It couldn't have been a more perfect weekend until Sunday. My sister and I were looking at a Christmas gift we wanted to get my mom and my computer died. Not just lost all power died like cant find the hard drive died! I was so devastated and still am. I don't want to think about the things I have lost on there. I will just think of things that were copied on to other disc's. I am really hoping for a miracle but I don't know. So for now my roommate has been nice enough to let me use her computer here and there. I have a very busy month ahead with lots of projects so hopefully I will blog about them. If I dont happen to look at your blog for awhile its because I lost your address with the computer not because I dont love you!