thoughts

I haven't been very good at keeping this blog up this year. It seems like when it rains it pours. I am trying to keep a positive attitude about everything. I had to give a talk last week on gratitude and that really made me stop and think about things. I was able to attend the temple this last week and I just love it there. Sometimes I wish I never had to leave, Its so peaceful and quiet. I wish I had the power to take the hurt away from people. I have seen so many miracles happen and so many that could really use one. I know that we will find out when we get to the other side why so many had so many trials. So I don't make this into a depressing post I wanted to mention what happened yesterday. In our ward we have a blue and gold banquet for the scouts. Its a dinner for the ward and then they do a cake auction. They were trying to earn money for their scout camp this summer. They bumped the cost to 100 dollars a boy and we have 10 so the goal was 1000. Each boy makes a cake and they get auctioned off. It was too cute watching the boys faces as their cakes went for different prices. Our ward is very generous and we have quite a few that have lots of money. There wasn't a cake that didn't go for less then 50.00 dollars. The last cake went for 250 and you couldn't wipe the smile off his face. It was fun to be there. I promise this next month I will be more positive and try and keep up better with this blog. I am going to be doing more for myself this year. I decided I am always helping others which is good but I have been putting myself last. I am excited and nervous to get started this week with my first big change. Wish me luck! I hope you all have a great week!

Rollercoaster of Emotion

Its been quite a crazy couple of weeks with good news and bad. The boy that I talked about in my last post received a miracle. After being in the hospital on a heart and lung machine and feeding tube he is at home. It truly was a miracle and quite an experience for our ward. They made a page on face book so we could keep up with the updates and he had over 700 followers! If that doesn't say something about him and his family I don't know what does. I am so happy it was a good outcome in the end of such a horrible story.
The bad news of the last couple of weeks is about my aunt Kim. After she got her cancer removed they did tests and found that she still had it in her arm. The choices to amputate her arm from the elbow down or die. How is that even a choice? It broke my heart to hear this news and I just wanted to be closer to her so I could hug her. I know that she will figure things out and do as much as she can with one hand. I just feel so bad because after so many years of being cancer free it came back and took her arm. I am doing Relay for life again this year and it makes me want to fight harder when things like this happen. Cancer has taken way too many of my family and friends.
On my last day off I told my roommate Trish we needed to get away to the coast. It was suppose to be a beautiful day and it was. It was almost in the 60's and for the Oregon coast that is amazing weather. We went shopping to some outlet stores and just relaxed it was so nice. Sometimes you just need to do that to clear your mind for a day.